haha!.. again.. its 3.30 in the afternoon and i haven been eating.. =(.. biscuit will feed my stomache then.. my bf noes tat i still got feeling for u.. i guess he is veri sad.. but generous enuff to gif mi 1/2 yr to settle my prob.. i think if 1/2yrs later i haven settle.. den its a gg-ed.. i suck rite.. haha.. i think everibody is not happy now.. lolz... once again.. take care.. and ur exam is coming i guess.. jia you =)
i decided to gif this blog to u.. create a blog for u so tat u can write ur life and so on.. share ur life of de hidden-assassin wif ur fren ok? write all u wan ther.. for mi.. i blog when i am happy and sad.. i feel much better everitime i wrote inside.. haha.. 14july07
i am blogging here cos i am hungry.. haha.. no one at home.. =(.. how's ur day? slpin til noon? or gaming? haha.. wat ro server r u in btw?
it rythems rite? haha.
一切都是我的错， 无法实现的承诺， 带给你无比伤痛， 让你如此的难过。
den y u always like to break off wif the one u think she is de one? lolz.. tot of u the whole day and i noe i shdn be like this.. cos i doing some back up on my photos and i saw the pictures..
lolz.. its great to hear u that u can go on wif life.. jia you ok? all the best in the future.. =)..
i am happy today.. cos i called u.. and u picked up my call.. even thou i cry.. but the tears are not heartbroken.. de tears are love.. was wanted to encourage u to go on wif ur life happily.. but obvious.. i failed.. and we both cried.. realli cant forget u.. and de memories go deeper.. don noe why.. i tot time can dilute everithing? seems i am wrong this time.. won be able to blog so often during my wk days.. cos skool are busy..
have ya watched harry potter? hear tat if u read de books oredi.. its not so gd.. but if u nv read the books before.. den its orite.. haha.. i noe u like harry potter alot.. nice ya? harry grow up oredi.. we grow up le oso..
thx for being ther.. listening to mi always.. so near.. yet so far.. rmb to eat and slp ok? must take care of urself.. realli wan u to be healthy.. at least.. =(..
13july07
thx for ur love.. realli.. as i say.. try to be happy ok? i realli hope u r happy.. i am happy now.. thinking of u sometimes.. ahaha.. i got a fren like u too.. waiting for a gal tat he feel he is not the one for her.. but still waiting.. once again.. veri sorri.. i hope this blog will keep u happy.. ther's the little things i can do.. =)
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12july07
hmmmm.. so tired.. i flunk my english too.. =(.. write out of point.. lol.. i am drawing out a study plan.. haha.. hope i will follow it.. lolz.. how's ya life? coping well? i am sure u can do it de.
i went to SCH.. and pass ur house.. haf de urge to take down the 275.. lame rite guess u won c it wif ur real eyes le.. show u by using the photo bax.
08july07
deceived as in? wat are u referring to? i am sorry tat i haf hurt u.. nth i can do to amend my mistakes.. i noe u hate mi.. i understand ur feeling.. i noe everithing is my fault.. tats y i am afraid to think of anything which related to u.. i think i suck.. i cant strengthen my own thinking and decision.. i am de one hu get influenced easily instead of u.. i am sorri.. realli veri sorri..
06july07
life is tired.. i flunk all my h2s.. aww.. which is dam bad la.. people ard mi told mi its jus mid yr.. as long u pass de promos.. nth to worry about.. but how am i goin to face my parents. =(.. grat to ur tests. but u!.. how can u smoke? OR EVEN PIERCE UR EAR? NO WAY.. tats veri bad.. i don wish u c u like this on de street or anywher else.. i will start spd abit of time on study everiday from now on.. gd luck to mi!..
4july07
here's the 2nd post.. i think i did badly for my mid yr.. esp bio.. i am getting like 10% oni.. haha.. bio is hard.. de feelin of hard deprive mi from studying for it.. ytd mom slapped mi.. feel so bad.. useless and lazy as usual.. i am someone hu oni study at de last min.. u noe tat.. haha.. however.. i don wanna regret this time.. i don wan to get retain.. so i promised myself to study at least 1 hr everiday.. if i am not free for de day.. i will add it to the next day.. 1hr/day is not too much.. 1hr/day able to get at least pass for all my subj (except english which we cant study.. lol..) i must haf de determination ya?..
as for u.. as i said.. study hard too!.. u r not stupid.. in fact.. cleverer than mi. if i am intelligent.. u must be a genius.. more talents are able to find from u. i hope to c a successfuk u in the not far future!.. tats all for de day.. i feel better to say out my feeling and thots haha.. great to haf a listening ear like u..
3july07
this is my veri 1st post.. haha.. maybe.. its for u.. noe y i don to reply ur msg?.. i don dare.. i am afraid tat any thing tat i haf said.. might haf hurt u.. i don wish to hurt u anymore.. i feel i owe u too much.. and i am realli happy to receive everi of ur message.. knowing tat u r doin well.. i feel glad.. i hope ur life will always be like this.. and.. don msg mi anymore le.. as u noe i won reply.. i noe u deleted mi from ur msn.. i am not angry or anything.. cos if i were u.. i would do de same.. rmb y i deleted u when we jus break off? cos whenever u on9.. i cried.. cried so hard til my tears are dry.. realli veri painful.. like thousands of needles goin tru my heart.. so i will not blame u for anything. everi of ur message is so touching.. i noe u still love mi.. veri deeply.. i can feel from everi single of the word.. u noe y i wanted to be a teacher? in nass especially? cos its de place.. we played wif our frens.. enjoy ourselves.. and the memories.. i believe tat de sweetest moment is tat during sec3 exam period.. i kissed u on ur cheek after de demand from chris and gang.. don noe why i got de courage to do so.. maybe.. its love..
i realise even thou.. in the past.. u had patch and break wif mi for uncountable times.. broken my heart thousands of time.. childish and immature acts tat make regret forgiven u everitime.. but.. u nv makes mi worry.. i don need to care whether u will go out wif gals or chat wif gals.. staying over night anot.. u don tok to gals too.. always wif bryan they all.. i am confident wif u.. i noe u r not flirt. so guai and obedient at times.. u noe wat i wan.. i no need to say it out.. the music i like.. the small things happening ard.. even i will gif in to u most of the time.. cos u r always like a little child.. hu needs mi to shower u wif my love and care.. in a way.. u r de most cute and lovable bf i haf ever had.. understand everithing on my mind..
realli taking a deep breath and deep consideration when i wan to seriously.. move u away from my stead status.. i realli hate u to say break this word.. i feel tat u will break soon after we patch.. sorri tat i haf hurt u this time.. deep enuff to stay in ur heart for life.. mi 2.. i will nv forget.. how hard my brain keep thinking of wat i shd do. and.. he is not a better guy tat can gif wat u cant gif mi.. jus tat.. he appear at de right time.. i feel bad myself.. keep thinking tat i shdn receive any love at all.. i hope u can forget de sadness soon.. i realli realli wish tat u will be happy.. if got fate.. we will be tgt.. if not.. happiness will fall on u eventually.. don worry tat i will forget u.. cos nv will i.. anything.. tag on the board if anything bax..
